Surving

Wow it has been a while. not that I havent needed to write, just basically all the stuff that has been going on in life.
Everything to being diagnosed with fibromyalgia to having to have injections done in my spine for a herniated disc/pinched nerve. The injections worked great for about 6 weeks. I am no where near the amount of pain I was in, but it does seem to be getting worse :( One day at a time.
So much has changed and is changing. Hannah graduated from high school, has gotten a job and is starting college in the fall. She has a boyfriend, the one - that I dont know. Only time will tell. I like him well enough but is he the one? Emily did not do well in school this year at all so we enrolled her in summer school and will probably continue this route into the fall.
Sometimes I feel like I am constantly fighting them in one way or another. Its their attitudes or just adhering to the rules.
Sometimes I just get through the day. Which that seems to be my norm. Just surviving.
I'm not depressed, well sometimes I am. I dont feel destined to be this way the rest of my life. Maybe right now I'm just coasting through. Saving my strength. For what, I dont know. In some ways I'm apathetic. Just really don't care. Don't care about anyone else but me and mine.
Taking Emily out of school will relieve some stress out of our lives. I was just so sick of all the drama - who's on drugs, who's pregnant, who's not talking to who this week. Really??!? It just got so old, so fast.
Money wise - same thing. Friday rich, Monday poor. Paying the bills, some play money. Again, surviving.
Family - mine ok, Eddy's - same crap as always. Why do we even try? Eddy longs for a relationship with his dad. Although as long as Ann is around, that will never happen.
Surviving - yep thats it - treading water.